After having breakfast, I immediately approached my boss and discussed what my members want. Being their team lead, I want what’s the best for them and that they won’t be loaded with all those new directives  from the management. So yada yada yada, here’s our proposal, here’s our objectives, here’s the reason, all laid on my boss’ table. Result? Negative. Still, we need to follow the instructions given. Masama sa loob cuz personally, I don’t like the idea following those directives without a clear objective. Siguro may objective pero I’m so unreceptive that time and all I wanna do is just to relay the BIG BAD NEWS to my members. So frustrating.

So there, huddle. Since I wasn’t in a good mood (nung nakuha ko ang result), I just discussed kung anong dapat malaman. After 10 mins, dismissed. NO QUESTIONS from the team. I know they were all pissed off. My dilemma? They were pissed -  with me, not with the management. I know the trend naman. I’ve also been in their position. Questioning the Team Lead kung anong ginawa nya. Pero ok lang, I’ve been in this situation many times since my former TL transferred the burden to meJ. So maghapon, hindi ako kinibo, Friday, so so lang. Pero nandun pa din yung rejection. Badtrip, sakit sa ulo, sakit sa dibdib, sakit sa tiyan. Well, naisip ko na lang that it’s not may obligation to let them know every steps that I’m taking, every move that might help them and of course, sa kung anong nararamdaman ko. Alam ko naman alam nila.

I took my weekend vacation. Spent every moment with my daughter and husband pero ang problema, andun pa din ang anino nila!! JHoping that come Monday, ok na ulit. Everything will be back to normal. I took an extension of my weekend vacation last Monday. Just want to have some rest from all that happened last week. Papasok na ang Tuesday, kinakabahan na ko. Tuesday morning, I watched Unang hirit and came across the usual horoscope stuffs. Ang sabi don, makakatanggap daw ako ng magandang balita sa office. So I just prayed, hoping na meron nga. So I reported back to work, saw my members with smiles on their face pero hindi pa din ganon ka normal. Still, there were people who just don’t want to settle things that easy. Salamat na din sa iba. Before lunch, I browsed my facebook pictures and just realized that my members were already at my back laughing on the pictures that I was browsing. Relieved. I immediately handed them my chichacorn para ma relax lang ako. Eto na siguro ang magandang balita. All things back to normal. J