Relieved

February 2, 2010

Last Thursday before the clock ticked at 8 am, one of my members approached me to discuss some stuffs. Of course, office related stuff. So the usual, I listened to her and gave the most positive answer that I can think of. Before we got back to our own work stations, I gave her an assurance that this will be escalated to our boss and check if request is possible.

After having breakfast, I immediately approached my boss and discussed what my members want. Being their team lead, I want what’s the best for them and that they won’t be loaded with all those new directives  from the management. So yada yada yada, here’s our proposal, here’s our objectives, here’s the reason, all laid on my boss’ table. Result? Negative. Still, we need to follow the instructions given. Masama sa loob cuz personally, I don’t like the idea following those directives without a clear objective. Siguro may objective pero I’m so unreceptive that time and all I wanna do is just to relay the BIG BAD NEWS to my members. So frustrating.

So there, huddle. Since I wasn’t in a good mood (nung nakuha ko ang result), I just discussed kung anong dapat malaman. After 10 mins, dismissed. NO QUESTIONS from the team. I know they were all pissed off. My dilemma? They were pissed -  with me, not with the management. I know the trend naman. I’ve also been in their position. Questioning the Team Lead kung anong ginawa nya. Pero ok lang, I’ve been in this situation many times since my former TL transferred the burden to meJ. So maghapon, hindi ako kinibo, Friday, so so lang. Pero nandun pa din yung rejection. Badtrip, sakit sa ulo, sakit sa dibdib, sakit sa tiyan. Well, naisip ko na lang that it’s not may obligation to let them know every steps that I’m taking, every move that might help them and of course, sa kung anong nararamdaman ko. Alam ko naman alam nila.

I took my weekend vacation. Spent every moment with my daughter and husband pero ang problema, andun pa din ang anino nila!! JHoping that come Monday, ok na ulit. Everything will be back to normal. I took an extension of my weekend vacation last Monday. Just want to have some rest from all that happened last week. Papasok na ang Tuesday, kinakabahan na ko. Tuesday morning, I watched Unang hirit and came across the usual horoscope stuffs. Ang sabi don, makakatanggap daw ako ng magandang balita sa office. So I just prayed, hoping na meron nga. So I reported back to work, saw my members with smiles on their face pero hindi pa din ganon ka normal. Still, there were people who just don’t want to settle things that easy. Salamat na din sa iba. Before lunch, I browsed my facebook pictures and just realized that my members were already at my back laughing on the pictures that I was browsing. Relieved. I immediately handed them my chichacorn para ma relax lang ako. Eto na siguro ang magandang balita. All things back to normal. J

Everyday, challenge sakin ang hindi magalit ang team ko sa akin. If galit sila or hindi nila ako gusto this day or this week, masama kasi ala kaming mabuting nagagawa. Worst, nabubulok ako sa upuan ko. Sabi ko nga, all for 1, 1 for all except the TL J Salamat na lang at week lang ang itinatagal at salamat din na  nakakayanan ko sya. Salamat din sa knila kasi I always got to learn new things pag ganon ang nangyayari. Salamat. Relieved. J

Salamat Manong Driver

January 26, 2010

If I were to count kung ilang beses na halos mawala sa possession ko ang telepono ko, hindi na siguro kasya ang 10 fingers ko para mabilang. Still, good thing na madami pa din honest na tao. Siguro it so happen din na kilala ko sila that’s why they also call me everytime I left my phone. Kasama ng pagtawag nila sakin ang nakukuha kong pagmumura sa katangahan ko. Ulyanin inshort. Pero ok lang, still, ibinalik nila J

 

Last Monday, usual na gawain ko sa umaga after ko mag travel from Bataan, 6 in the morning, dumaan ako for coffee at McDonald then diretso sa pilahan ng tricycle jan sa Boni MRT. I was seated beside the malaking mama. Meaning, nasa pintuan na ko at malapit ng lumabas ang butt ko sa laki nya. There were also tricycle drivers adjacent to where we were positioned. Taking coffee, chit chat, usual usapang mama. My sling bag is of course hanging pa din sa leeg ko. What I didn’t notice is that I wasn’t able to close my bag. My Iphone was there as well as my Mrt card (may 75 pesos pa yun). My purse, it’s with me. Finally, puno na ang upuan, so let’s move manong!. J So ready na. siguro kakagalaw lang ng tricycle when somebody shouted at our driver to stop. I thought it’s because konti na lng mababangga yung tricycle namin sa kotse pero hindi kasi malayo pa naman. I just waited sa kung anong susunod na mangyari. Then one of the driver approached me and handed me my phone. Shorcks! Nahulog pala sya. I was so speechless that time kasi kinakabahan and sa sobrang pasasalamat. I only uttered dalawang “ ssalamat” sa nagbigay. Pero gusto ko ng mag rent ng banda at bigyan sila ng pagpupugay sa sobrang pasasalamat. I checked my bag and I knew that my card was also missing. Before our driver started the engine again, another driver handed me my mrt card. Wow, ssalamat J.

 

While I was in the tricycle, I couldn’t help but think of the what if’s. Iphone kaya yun. Pag ibenenta yan, pera pa din yun. The driver told me “buti sa pilahan nalaglag yan. Madami ng nakakahulog don pero nababalik naman”. Ssalamat J

 

After ko makababa sa tricycle when I reached st. Jude, lumapit ako sa driver. Just told him one thing na alam ko dapat. “Manong ssalamat. Pakisabi din pos a kanina, salamat ng madami”

 

I just learned one thing after this experience. Minsan kasi I judge people the way they look which is alam ko hindi tama. At yun nga, hindi nga tama. So babalik tayo sa kasabihang… “Don’t judge the book by its cover”. Bow

Start it with a Fair Evaluation…

January 13, 2010

I just finished with my team’s performance evaluation. I think I made 5 revisions and just 2 deliberations with my IS as to why I gave this and that.

 

Well, tis my first time as a Team lead to rate my team’s performance. Virginal. Ang hirap pala. Whew! You need to review all their scores and performances from the start to the end of the year 2009.

 

I’m currently handling 8 members. Syempre kanya kanyang performances and personalities. Magkakaiba na lng sila on how they take in the responsibilities na naibigay sa kanila. Mmmm, kinda mahirap kasi some of them has the same scores but I need to think deeper daw kung san sila bumabawi. Some items are being documented and some are not. Here, Sample lang.

 

1. Productivity

·         Service level

·         Resolution rate

·         Quality

2. it’s simple as: gano ka nagging kabibo hehe

 

I need to analyze every detail per member. Konti na lang at maduduling na ko. If I can make it per word, I will. Mahirap na, baka may magwala. Hehe— >Story behind is, last year, there were members who were not included in the list of employees that will be receiving salary increase. Why? They did not pass (daw) the standard performance grid. Of course, human- natural thing, magagalit. We were told that the scores provided by their team leads have been modified by what you call the “kataas- taasang lipunan” by our company. Oh life.

It’s just so frustrating thinking on why they pulled down the scores knowing that the it should be the team leads who know the members better than the “kataas- taasang lipunan”. It’s just so unfair.

 

Though evaluations have been submitted, I don’t think I’m really contented on the scores I have provide.  I have to provide meaning, may mga scores don that were dictated as the numbers show. Ewan ko. Just wishing that all will end well. I’ll wait for March. If one of my members fail, I’ll definitely cry. L

Make You Feel my Love…

January 6, 2010

Adele - Make You Feel My Love (Adele)

I just found this song while playin’ with my Ipod. May ganto  pala akong nailagay.  sooo sweet. Haaay, parang may pinch everytime I hear it. Here it goes J

 

Make You Feel My Love

            Adele

 

 

When the rain is blowing in your face,

and the whole world is on your case,

I could offer you a warm embrace

to make you feel my love.

 

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,

and there is no one there to dry your tears,

I could hold you for a million years

to make you feel my love.

 

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet,

but I would never do you wrong.

I’ve known it from the moment that we met,

no doubt in my mind where you belong.

 

I’d go hungry; I’d go black and blue,

I’d go crawling down the avenue.

No, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do

to make you feel my love.

 

The storms are raging on the rolling sea

and on the highway of regret.

Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,

you ain’t seen nothing like me yet.

 

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.

Nothing that I wouldn’t do.

Go to the ends of the Earth for you,

to make you feel my love

to make you feel my love

Scrub off Those Fats

January 5, 2010

Kung tama ang pagkakatanda ko, the last time I stepped in the weighing machine was before November and I was at 130 lbs that time. Now you know what exactly I am going to talk about. yes eto yun…

 

Here’s list of activities that helped add my body weight up to (toootooot) pounds.

 

November:

-          Nov. 14, that was my birthday. Syempre, hindi lang ako that day nag celebrate. There’s what we call pre and post Birthday celebration.

-          Nov. 30, that was Erin’s Birthday. See, hindi ganon katgal bago may nag birthday ulit

 

December:

 

-          Dec 11 – Our Company and Team’s Christmas Party @ chaikofi

-          Dec 18 –  Our Department celebrated Christmas Party at food nation

-          Dec 24 – 27 – went home to Bataan. Celebrated Christmas and all you need to do is eat sleep, eat and sleep

-          Dec 28 – 29 – back to work. Pero ganon pa din, order dito, order don

-          Dec 30 – Jan 3 – New year’s celebration. Damn! Eto na. Lahat ng cholesterol, nakain mo na

 

Now you know. Hindi pa yan Kumpleto. The last time I weighed this much was is I think year 2007 or 2008. See! It took me so long to scrub off some of my excess katabaan.  

 

Now here’s the thing. I started my no rice diet diet (that is if you really call it a diet) just yesterday. NO rice- less carbo. I don’t know as to when I can stand this thing but I need to lose weight. I need to be at my 125 lbs (atleast J) before summer comes. I just want to be in the body that I want when the cameras start clicking (of course sa mga beach ito, hindi sa studio)

 

Oh! I almost forgot. Yesterday, I just had a bad headache. I thought it’s only my eyes but when I checked my blood pressure, t’was high. Effect pa din yun ng mga ginawa at kinain ko.

 

See this?!!   Oo yan yun. At kakayanin ko to!

 

A Not so Happy Feet

December 28, 2009

   This is my 1 pc happy feet sandals…

 

 and this is MRT Edsa - Cubao Station.

 

Last Dec 23, I am one of the thousand of people who were so atat to go home to the province and spend Christmas with their loved ones. I decided that I’ll be having 730 to 430 schedule that day since on a normal “MRT day”, trains will only be swamped with people by 500PM. I arrived at the station around 445. I’m surprised cuz it’s not so normal for a Wednesday @ 445 pm TO BE FLOODED  with so many passengers. I decided again to have a round trip ride. BONI to Taft, Taft to Cubao. I was positioned in the male area. The moment the train stopped, in a one click of a finger, BAM! Puno ang MRT. Panalo.Hanep! Ok lng since I was able to take a nice seat naman. So here goes the choo choo train. At every station, people were shouting, screaming “HOY        MAY LALABAS!, TABI! OR WAG MUNA KAYONG PUMASOK, MADAMI PANG LALABAS!!” … whew!

 

Boni again, shaw, ortigas, santolan then wow… Here comes Cubao station. The people near the exit managed to get at the platform peacefully. I was there standing, waiting for the man standing infront of me to go out (nakaharap kasi sa pinto kaya I thought, he is also waiting for the others to move out). Ayun, Hindi pala. He was just standing there with no plans to move. The man at my back yelled that somebody needs to go out (that’s me). He moved and said sorry.In fairness. The moment I saw the exit, I was shocked since there were group of people entering the already. If my memory serves me right, they were about 5 to 7. Ano naman ang kinalaman ng lakas ko sa lakas nila!!! Meaning, I tried pushing everyone blocking my way out. Pero hindi ko nakaya. They don’t want to move even an inch!!! I yelled “ Pwede pong tumabi muna at may lalabas?!!” NR- no reaction, bato. Walang gumalaw. My paper bag was sandwiched between 2 malalaking mama! I pulled it with all my strength (ayokong maiwan yun since andun ang mga make up ko).  Sa wakas, I felt that my right foot already touched the platform. My left? It’s still there, looking for its pair. Huhu. When I was able to completely freed  my self and about to step my left foot at the platform, I felt my sandals slipped from my foot. Ang nasabi ko lang… “UNG SANDALAS KOOO! “ wala na kong ca cIass class. I just hoped that I should have left it somewhere lang sa train. I looked back but huhuhu, I found no happy feet slippers there. So I guess, Nahulog sya ng bongga sa railway. Naisip ko naman, I can request for the guards naman to pick it up for me.

 

The moment I got out from the train, I was so tired!! nanginginig sa pagod at sa galit. Buti na lng, I brought another pair of slippers in my bag. Pano na lang pag wala akong dala!!! Can’t imagine myself walking along  cubao ng walang tsinelas. I immediately changed my sandals, hindi na ko umupo. I saw the faces of those people na umipit sakin nung sumara ang pinto. GRINNING!!!  Sayang, naisip ko na lng ang pagganti nung nakababa na ko. I forgot to throw my slippers (mabigat yun!!) to their faces!. Pagka alis na train, wala din akong nakita sa railways. I just observed that the “mini kanal” in the railway was moving.Nahulog don. So naisip ko, Karen, give up na. wala na ang sandalas mo L

 

I stayed at the platform for 15 mins. Called my husband who thought nanakawan ako, called ferna and took a rest. After gaining back my powers and my ulirat, I proceeded to the bus station with a grief. I miss my sandals so much!!!! It’s been with me for more than 2 years. I can buy another pair pero I still love that sandals at walang makekealam.

I Call it a Night

December 23, 2009

I call it a night. A night wherein I got to unite with my friends whom I’ve never seen for such a long time (1 year hehe). I met with two groups. The yuppies and the kikays. hehe

 

Yuppies- Here’s my kinda goody goody friends way back in college.

Jean: Jean has always been my hagikgik partner since college.

Hanzel: the nerdy cutie friend

Lani: aaah, she’s always been pretty as always

Kaye: my so so friend with a very good voice

Hanzel just got back from Singapore to spend Holidays here in the Philippines. So, we planned having dinner at Trinoma since its been a year since we last saw each other. Sadly, Jean was not able to join us cuz she needs to travel goin’ to the province. There! Hanzel, kaye and Lani. Final- Trinoma, 6 PM. Hanzel and I met at around 6:15 . Hanzel just lives near Trinoma and Me? I just need to take a 15 minute MRT ride to get there. By 7, Hanzel and I decided to eat @ Seafood Island. We were so gutom that we need to order a platter of “Pinoy Nachos”. By 7, kaye followed, 8, lani. Always late hehe. We ordered Boracay Boodle with RICE fiesta (4 na gatang ata to). Sarap! We had our kumustahan J. Update each other on what’s the latest, got news concerning friends way back college. Ang saya just reminiscing the past. We took so much pictures (Oh anyway, the waiter just got so excited using the iphone that he offered us taking pictures for the 2^nd time. Hehe). It’s a nice feeling being with them and all you need to do is chat, laugh, chat and laugh.

 

    

Well, 9 pm came. Need to transfer naman from the yuppies to Kikays.

 

Kikays -  Friends I met in Globe. They call their goup Kikays cuz they are really Kikays J. I joined them (Ferna, Taj, Cel & Suby) around 9PM cuz I’m having a hard time leaving the yuppies ( I missed them so much). As for the Kikays, I always get to see them in the office naman. Suby is the only one I haven’t seen for a month and I miss na rin their company. Anyway, they already adopted me as part of  Kikays hehe. Suby gave us usefull gifts. I dunno how to call the thing but it will help you to be more organized everytime you travel. I’ll post a picture na lng. So we chat chat chat. Laugh, took pictures. Taj also confessed something that I really can’t put down in writing since it’s too sensitive. We went home around 1045, took a cab going back to Boni.

 

Cab- we had a good ride from North Edsa to quezon Ave. Walang traffic. GMA kamuning, gosh! There was a long parking lot up to CUBAO. It’s so unusual for 11PM to have that kind of traffic ( I Just learned this morning na may banggaan. That’s why). While in the cab, Taj, Ferna and I got so bored that we started singing whatever song we remembered. It’s like playing a round song and guessing game for the song title. We got home 1145 and we still need to report for work 8 am next day. Sweet J

3 Days Before Christmas

December 22, 2009

It’s been weeks since I last heard from her. Its 3 days before Christmas and I’m still wondering if I need to give her gift as peace offering or because I still consider her as my friend despite all the comments that I got from her (discreetly) hehe. Pero come to think of it, it’s just so hard for me to think na it’s all ok na after what happened.

 

She’s the ninang of my daughter, my former TL, mentor and friend. The time I got in the position of being a team lead and she was currently in the position of one of our partner/dependencies, I just realized that things have changed slowly. Our department used to hate her and I never saw any reason that time of hating her. However, as time goes by I just saw and felt it myself. My housemate knows how much I hate her for what happened in our office recently.

 

3 days before Christmas, I received a gift. A thing I wasn’t expecting specially from her. It’s a gift for my daughter. Somehow, it still outweighed hatred and I just love what I felt.

   

 

 

My New Blogsite

 New blogsite again. I guess i need to stick na with this site since i really can’t remember my account from my previous blog site.

So here we go again. Actually, my housemate was the one who influenced me so much of this blogging thing. She just informed me this morning that she was checkin’ her personal achievements for the year 2009. I was so envious since I don’t have any reference for any achievements or what really happened for my entire life for the year 2009. She served as my reminder. What a memory!

Oh, anyway, that’s her in the picture. The lady in green.  I don’t know either if I’m authorized to post it ) hehe